Sunday, July 25, 2010
Taipau 1:35 AMthis is the story of a boy, why cried the river and drown the whole world
looking seems so far and near.
he look at the palm of his hands and didnt noe to smile or cry.
the broken pieces stood at the foot of his bed, the ones he threw shattered.
desperately searching for something to call himself. he took nothing for granted yet he didnt see anything
he dint see anything tat fits him.
people around him change, he didnt chg with them. he took his stand
a conventional stand.
he couldnt not see the problem, yet his heart felt like it was at the cliffhanger. his emotion run wild
he bit his arms he threw thing little things around.
his mind went balistic. walking up and down the room he was in. he dropped on the bed
he dint fit in the puzzle of his own life.
he couldnt see what his emotions was telling him.
blurred and confused at the pressure around him.
he tried to voice out. a gentle scream escaped into the dark skies ahead.
nv to be heard , he tried to kept that voice deep again.
sorrow didnt mean a thing to him anymore
he just wants to noe
what is it that he should do.
he closed his eyes. all he see are mist that would nv clear .
he took life in command yet life didnt seem to care. it just went its own way.
angry and furious as he was. he was oni confronted by more frustation from in front
there was no comfort of the blankets . there was no warm touch into the heart.
his efforts is a waste.
the more he thinks the more he speaks
he noes well, he will oni be rebutted by the things he has heard so many times.
he didnt need tis
but yet it seems like the oni result he will get
surrounded by darkness
he took his face and slammed it on the good ol' concrete
pain seered his own body. but yet it dint help
he knew. soon. he would be caught and left in the darkness again.
and so . for now. until the story of the boy continues.
he whimpers at the dark corners he is known to keep quiet in.
and yet again. cry silently as there would be no solution for it
none wat so ever.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Taipau 8:46 PMwat ever it may seem, i refused reality so much that it seem so fruitless
as i reach to go crazy in so many situation, my sub conscious wants me to say sane,
some that would oni come to mind. because i have the responsibility to do so.
sometimes i seems bright
other times dark and endless
despair and joy,
twisted in a cross world.
a bleak sight of sanity comes between
splitting happiness and sorrow.
yet the oni evil in ones heart is WORRY
the sense of losing ,
or death even
the future clouded, like a fog so thick
each step i take i see a part of it as it becomes present
and no matter how much u think, no matter how much u try. u cant see it
live today like there is no tomorrow,
how i wish it was so simple to me, how i wish i could be so naive again
i strive for acknowledgement, but yet i m nv serious about it. many things i could have done,
but i wait and i bide. till one day i would unfold a piece of my future that will shine towards eternity.
waiting, i sat on the edge of the cliff of life. waiting to drop and splash into the colors that would await me.
but now is not the time. i live for today
let it be loneliness
let it be sorrow
let it be smiles and laughter
let it be cries and whimpers
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Taipau 2:15 AM poetic wannabe
its a hot night,
though it was raining earlier
it didnt help much
so many questions
so many answers to choose from.
wat is there to do with life
can u be certain of the ways u choose
Would i be able to make ends meet
would i survive another day.
weather changes hot and cold
the path stood forked in front,
a new journey ahead
forms parallel worlds of what would have
regrets often ensue
the wrong choices we make
why not make the best of
wat we have right now
patience a virtue always ignored
patience is actually endless
temper is the one that springs
the patience to be destroyed
have a little faith
give a lil try
in these things that make life worth living
Friday, July 16, 2010
Taipau 12:15 AM
losing my self
i think humans are form through pieces of life and experience
from the day u were born, u form personalities.
traits that are grown and outlasted the others become ur attitude.
how u deal with things comes the experience and the logic of things.
i think i cracking piece by piece, emotionally unstable and downright
tired and irritated.
hope things would be ok soon.
i have grown weary of things to come.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Taipau 9:09 PM ma lifeThis the first time dat i m goin for a friends wedding, not my mom's friend or any relatives.
its cool, the food was great and the entertainment is quite good oso. its a village/small town event, so they hav many old timers and they really like their karaoke sessions. the difference is they like to perform in public where as youths just wanna hide in their dimmed down room and act emo.so gonna share some pics during that event, its not so clear so bare with it.
i cant seem to arrange the photos nicely. and till i noe how i just hav to deal with tis. sry